HEEY AGAIN
I was looking around on the web and out of the blue remembered that I had a blog!
I know that you are probably wondering how a blog could end up forgotten for so long, but I guess I had so many other things going on in my life taking up a large piece of my time!
Anyway, I guess this is me telling you - I AM BACK!
pounding
I suddenly felt, my heart pounding
looking over my flight details
a wave of worries shook me over
but I managed to keep myself from
getting carried away with it, I'll make my own way
I refuse to let my thought scare me, as long as i have control.
creative with words of heart
whatever my heart is feeling
everything my mind registers
every question I'm asking
in words.
keep blaming me
I'm not perfect, nor will I ever be.
Get off my back, dont comment everything.
Stop picking on me constanly. Enough.
I have my own problems do deal with,
dont need or want to handle you attitude issues too.
If you feel such a need of blaming me, go tell someone else.
Because I've heard enough, I dont want to hear it no more.
Whilst eyes are closed
This is the third time now, I woke up in the middle of the night feeling hot.
I know for a fact that I'm not sick, but whyyyy I'm I having these major problems with my sleep. seriously!
I can see that I'm not the only one having touble sleeping, which my facebook gladly confirms but I'm tired of trying and fighthing against it. All I want is to get my sleep back, then we can talk about beautysleep. Because I can tell and know from my own experiences that sleep makes you beautiful, stunning to be exact.
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So as I lose not only my sleep but Im also getting more ugly for each day/night that passes by like this. I have to figure out how to end this evil life-sucking circle of bad sleep. Like now!
If you have any secrets or know something that could help, please share and help a friend in bad need, plz. :/<3
I'm so doing it!
As I viewed the page before confirming I was filled with a mixed feeling of happiness and anxiety, 1 month baby and Im simply asking for everything to work and go my way. It'd mean the world to me if I for just this once could have a vacation without troubles regarding our timetable, the flights or anything else for that matter.. Im begging for mercy!
Yes, it is now all set and done, Im doing it..
Get away,
When you have one of those reconstructives sundays after a hard week, nothing is as appreciated as a good old sleep. Unfortunately I had a hard week and a both rough and good weekend but won't be able to get a good night sleep. The reasons spells both powernap and The Oscars Gala.
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Me and my friend got home early in the morning, slept until three in the afternoon and headed to IKEA to grab something tasty to eat. When I got back home from our little trip I felt exhausted and parked myself on the couch and later continued to my bedroom to check my phone. I then found my bed too irresistable and decided to get a powernap, 20 minutes maximum and had my timer set. Little did I know... I never heard it go off and was woken up by my mum 2 hours later!! I can totally feel that my sleeping cycle is ruined for tonight and boy was I lucky to find out that The Oscars Gala is on this night/morning. Goodie goodie I'd say!
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But now it's time to have my own little get away, Grey's anatomy is out @ www.cucirca.com
When you have one of those reconstructive sundays after a hard week, nothing is as appreciated as a good old sleep. Unfortunately I had a hard week and a both rough and good weekend but won't be able to get a good night sleep. The reasons spells both powernap and The Oscars Gala.
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Me and my friend got home early in the morning, slept until three in the afternoon and headed to IKEA to grab something tasty to eat. When I got back home from our little trip I felt exhausted and parked myself on the couch and later continued to my bedroom to check my phone. I then found my bed too irresistable and decided to get a powernap, 20 minutes maximum and had my timer set. Little did I know... I never heard it go off and was woken up by my mum 2 hours later!! I can totally feel that my sleeping cycle is ruined for tonight and boy was I lucky to find out that The Oscars Gala is on this night/morning. Goodie goodie I'd say!
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But now it's time to have my own little get away, Grey's anatomy is out @ www.cucirca.com
A funny thing
It all just hit me...
Why is it that I keep writing in english instead of swedish when I live in sweden and have a swedish domain?
This is a frequently asked question among my friends and family but I don't seem to have an answer to explain it all. I for some reason enjoy "english typing" - its phrases, words and sentences. It looks better, doesnt it?
AND
I have a very dear friend/sister of mine that I've known for aaages, like since we were little babies. So as we grew up together we decided that we'd share our nationalities. She has american roots and I have eritrean roots, so as we grew into both nationalites we now see ourselfs as swedish/eritrean/americans. Mixtures are awesome! So I guess that kind of explains it too, haha :) Besides the given fact that I love the languages and it simply comes to me and I get and great oppertunity to develop my English!
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// your swedish/eritrean/american rrr4
SEARCHING..
Kommer någon att befinna sig i Los Angeles-området och vill hyra lägenhet där, för minst en vecka?
Jag och min syster kommer att åka dit den 10maj och vill träffa trevliga människor samt få till en bra budget.
Vi har hittat ett antal områden men har inga måsten, vi är skötsamma och sociala!
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Will anyone be located around the Los Angeles-area and is willing to rent an apartment, for minimum a week???
Me and my sister will be there may 10th and want to meet nice people and keep our budget for the trip. We have found a few areas and apartments, most of them had more than 2 beds so why not share an apartment or house and get an unforgettable trip much cheaper! We dont have any decided areas, as long as it isnt too far away. We are both very social and behaved.
"los angeles apartment holiday rental"
Your making
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Should I stay or should I go, is there anything at all that I'd be missing.
I know that I can adjust, take care of all my musts and do them well.
I know that I can adjust, take care of all my musts and do them well.
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But what if I hesitate, suddenly lose hope and faith, then will you rescue me.
I think I need and want this bad, but something's still holding me down
making me fight it. Fight myself, fight my will.
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It's time to do it any way, simply take my leap of faith.
awesomeness!
Now if someone randomly decides to tell me to:
"Shut up and drive", Well now I finally can
and it feels awesome! <3
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oddly enough
This is odd.
I for some reason couldn't shut it down, the computer that would be. I felt an odd urge of typing down letters, forming words and sentences with a built in meaning. Though I can still not type without hesitating, why that is I still havent found out but the feeling is there.
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I could be about me wanting to say how much I miss my tenniscourt, how much I miss holding a racket in my hand feeling the force of gravity. How everything just drops and seems insignificant for a moment and a load of weight drope from my shoulders.
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I could be about me missing school, classes and deadlines. The way it's messes up both mind and body but also the great reward you get when you succeeded. All the knowledge you stuff in you head and to your surprise find them useful.
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I could be about me missing someone but rather focus on myself and ignore that part of me which tells me to do something, something before it's gone. At the same time, It could just be me trying to figure some out.
a head of moi
Yesterday, goodbye.
Today, I say good morning.
Tomorrow, I see you when I see you.
I have these past days been busy thinking, working and planning. I have an exciting time ahead of me and most importantly of it's changing qualities. I welcome everything that passes my way with open arms, to deal and lear from it. Therefor I'll remain confident and not worry, sooner or later things would've come down to this, so welcome.
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I spoke with my sister last night and it now looks like I'll head straight to california instead of somewhere in townie amercia. Im all good with it and am ready to work as hard as possible just to make sure that I can do everything that I have planned ahead of me. I'll book my flight this month, which I find to be completly insane. Since it has felt like one of those things you talk about forever and plan around but never reach out to. But yes I will! hihih :)
delicate
my eyes are searching after what's hidden to marvel at.
Just an ordinary but special day
Today has been a very relaxing and cool day without me stressing over anything. Well I did have places to go to and things that needed to be done but as soon as I woke up this morning I noticed that everything had to be dropped, didn't really feel to sensing a cold and headaches on my way.
I just stayed in all day having a low-speed day but still shockingly managed to clear my closet and had a little fashionshow of my own wearing clothes I forgot I even had, haha. Noticing I'm in way more need of shoes than clothes really! The second shocker is that I actually cleaned my entire room and now have evrything organized and nicely cleaned, yaaay to that!
Tomorrow is all about washing my laudry and working, which pretty much sums up what I'll be doing till around 7pm when I get off work. Then I'll supposively watch one of the movies I've been dying to see for so long, either The town, My name is Khan or The stoning of Soray M. Can't wait.
